Saturday, December 27, 2008 12/27/2008 01:03:00 PM
yesterday was christmas. i went over to grandma's and she pulled me shopping ard there in sungai wang. but i was not in the festive mood, lest the shoppingmood. in the end i bought nothing but helped in the shop instead. yeah. when we were walking in the complex, i suddenly felt so lost. everyone there was with their partner- husband and wife, boyfriends and girlfriends, cliques and yadda yadda yadda. even grandma has grandpa and mum has dad. i had noone. the festive loneliness was crawling all over me. wondering how his christmas would be like. anyway, wishing all aHAPPY BELATED MERRY XMAS!
Tuesday, December 23, 2008 12/23/2008 06:57:00 AM
actually i didnt really know what to do now. if i really have a chance to meet him again will i let him go or will i ask him to be at my side always. oh maybe i was wrong last time. i should have had faith in him; i should believe that he will be there for me always; i shouldnt have done this to him; i shouldnt have pushed him aside when he came for me. now i only hope that i can find him again- he whom i had done so much for in the past, he who deserves what i have done for him. oh please can i get to see him again?
i'm sorry, _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _. i just want to see you again.
Monday, December 22, 2008 12/22/2008 03:36:00 PM
i dunno how to describe my feelings for today. just feeling down i guess. cannot reach him through his phone. he hasnt accepted the facebook friend request and msn and i couldnt find any ways to contact him. the sms-es i sent were still pending and his phone diverted to voicemail. i am not even sure if he has changed his number.four years ago i thought i could forget him after going to singapore but that was not true. i did have a boyfriend last year but we broke up in less than a month. it is then i start to realise that he still has a very impt place in my heart. but maybe i had realised it too late. he might not be there for me anymore. four years is a very long period of time in that it can heal wounds. but it also can make feelings more certain. maybe this four years was his time to forget me but i still havent forget him. but i have totally lost contact with him. maybe everything was fate.two years ago when he went to singapore for a holiday he came and look for me but i didnt really care. i so regretted what i have done then. at that time i didnt want to give him any hope cos i thought i will be studying in singapore until, perhaps, college. if during this long long period of time, he has found someone he likes, he can be with her. my heart bleeds when i did this but i cant be helped. this time i feel so down when i cant reach him. maybe he has totally forgotten about me and found someone he likes. i wish him happiness if he has found his true love. that was the last thing i could do now. i may be sad but i know his love will bring him happiness- so just let go...the only reason i can find to console myself is that he might have gone overseas for holiday. perhaps singapore...fated
Friday, December 19, 2008 12/19/2008 07:55:00 AM
YAY MY NEW SCHOOL IS SUPER BEAUTIFUL!
-this quote is from my msn and facebook.
so you shall see how nice my new school is. WAHAHAHA!
shall not reveal what school it is first xP
Thursday, December 18, 2008 12/18/2008 09:31:00 PM
HAHAHA! my new blog :D YAY!
